
Monday, November 30, 2009
So Is It Mr Sandman Or Diabetes That's Screwing With Me?

Friday, November 27, 2009
Diabetes Mine Holiday Survival Contest: Back In The Day, Christmas Cookies Were My Contraband of Choice
Half the people at the table could eat whatever they wanted, and half couldn’t- it was rough on everyone!
At the beginning of December my mother would start baking and freezing Tollhouse cookies for my brother Johnny who lived in California.
She’d bake late at night, when I was in bed, but I could smell the chocolate and it kept me up at night. I’d wait until everyone was in bed and the house was quiet.
Then, I’d sneak downstairs (skipping the creaky 5th step) and make my way past the dinning room & through the kitchen, and finally arrive in the heater room. We kept our second refrigerator in the heater room, and that’s where all the good stuff was stored.
Before I actually opened the fridge, I went to the cabinet to the left of the utility sink, where the tinfoil was kept, and I'd tare off a sheet.
Then, I’d open up the top freezer portion of the fridge and see the tin of cookies that my mother had just made. I’d take the tin,place it on the washing machine and remove the lid gingerly.
I'd pull back the top layer of wax paper and plastic wrap, revealing the treasure trove of Tollhouse cookies underneath.
It was as if the chocolate chips were looking into my very soul, beckoning me to break all the diabetes rules and give them a try!
My 9 year old self could not resist such a delicious and forbidden temptation.
Ever so carefully, I’d take 3 or 4 cookies and wrapped them tight in the tinfoil, (which was a great way to get rid of the evidence,) and I’d rearrange the cookies that were left so that the remaining contraband didn’t looked disturbed.
I’d grab a carton of milk from the fridge and go outside on the back porch, unwrap and eat my contraband cookies in the dark. Pathetic I know. But also brave when you consider a 9 year old was eating contraband cookies well past midnight on the back porch in the dark of night.
I’d sit on the porch steps, look up at the stars and enjoy my cookies. I'd wash them down with swigs of milk and I'd relish in the fact that I was enjoying something that most people took for granted.
When I was finished, I’d crumble up the foil and toss it in the alley between the garage and the house. Hiding the evidence from any who would look for it.
I’d go back in the house, lock the back door, put the carton of milk back in the heater room fridge, and then go to the downstairs bathroom where I’d wash my face and hands and rinse out my mouth with Listerine.
I’d tiptoe up the steps, avoiding that creaky 5th step and jump back into bed.
The next morning when I tested my urine (back in the diabetes dark ages we didn’t test our blood, we tested urine) was almost always 3% or more, and getting up for school was difficult.
Soon enough, my mom would discover the fact that cookies were missing. You see it wasn’t just me that was pilfering the Christmas Cookie Stash, my sister and dad (both type 1's) were doing the exact same thing I was.
My mom started sending out the cookies to my brother on a weekly basis instead of sending one big batch.
Am I proud of my "Holiday Fail" as a child? No, I’m not. But, I absolutely understand it.
Back then there was no such thing as carb counting or bolusing for extra food.
The Diabetes diet was strict and didn't allow for any holiday treats.
I’ve come along way since then, and I’m proud of the fact that I test my blood sugar between 10 and 15 times a day, and have figured out how to reach “Blood Sugar Nirvana” for most of my favorite bolus worthy foods.
Today, whenever this woman eats a Christmas Cookie, I think of that little girl and enjoy my cookie extra special in her memory.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
"I'm A Delicious Ear of Corn!" Happy Thanksgiving!
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Fight It Friday Is The New Black

#DiabetesFact
So it started on simply enough, I was bored at my freelance job, so I started tweeting “little known diabetes facts:"
Little known #diabetes fact: Diabetes does indeed make you better at math- whether you want to be or not
Little known #Diabetes fact: Fiber is our friend~
Little known diabetes fact: Cupcakes are MUCH easier to bolus for than pasta- It's true!
Little known diabetes fact: It is possible to test your blood sugar & do a correction bolus before the red light changes to green~
Then folks started retweeting them and Karen over at Bittersweet, gave her retweet a hashtag #Diabetesfact.
So once the hashtag was created,I couldn’t stop!
The following tweets are what followed. Those with Just the #diabetesfact are attributed to yours truly, and those with a name are contributed by other great minds of the DOC.
All are ring true and a more than a few will make you chuckle!
So, what’s your #Diabetesfact?
#Diabetesfact A high blood sugar feels like your walking through JELLO.
#diabetesfact : icecream is much easier 2 bolus for then risotto.
#diabetesfact : the diabetes police are mostly clueless & always annoying.
#diabetesfact : insulin smells like bandaids & fear.
#diabetesfact ; doorknobs are not friends to infusion sets.
#diabetesfact : You only crave carbs when your bloodsugar is blowing sky high
#diabetesfact :Test strips are found in the oddest and most intimate places.
#diabetesfact: IF CSI dropped by just for shit & giggles-they'd be totally confused. They'd find a blood trail, but no body.
#diabetesfact : When some 1 asks if "I'm allowed to eat that," my inclination is to call them a whore. Is that wrong?
#diabetesfact : People with diabetes are glucose tab connoisseurs. Don't even think about offering me grape flavor.
#Diabetesfact : Insulin bottles only break when your down to your last bottle.
#Diabetesfact : "Diatetic candy" causes gastrointestinal explosions that will rock your world-& not in the good way.
#Diabetesfact : You only need to change your pump battery when you have none on your person.
RT @ElizabethArnold #diabetesfact You'll never get gushers changing pump sites unless you happen 2b wearing a $500 white blouse &/or pants
#Diabetesfact : Blame me parents for my diabetes& I'll blame your parents for your stupidity. I'll take Diabetes over being stupid any day
#diabetesfact : Give a pig a pancake and you make them. smile. Offer a Diabetic a cupcake and you have a friend for life!
CALpumper #DiabetesFact Just because you think you know, doesn't mean it is. Don't try to manage My disease. Thanks.
#diabetesfact :PWDs are savants when it comes 2counting carbs. Glass of SilkSoy,10carbs-1gr of fibr=8grs of carbs & 10 minutes to Whopner!
CureT1Diabetes #diabetesfact Yes it hurts to lance a finger and draw blood (would you like to try it?).
CureT1Diabetes #diabetesfact No, my son does not want to hear what happened to your grandparent with diabetes all those years ago.
#Diabetesfact :Telling me that you "can get me off insulin in a month if I give up all things white" results in a verbal smackdown-l will win.
CALpumper #DiabetesFact No matter the Type, it is a Very individual disease. We are all so different. Embrace that part of it. Don't Ever judge.
CaseyWash #diabetesfact being a productive member of society is REALLY hard when your brain has no energy source #diabetes lows suck
#Diabetesfact : Before you even ask, YES, I'm allowed to eat that.
#Diabetesfact : Getting blood from a stone is sometimes easier than getting blood from a person with diabetes fingertips.
#Diabetesfact : Getting blood from a stone is sometimes easier than getting blood from a person with diabetes fingertips.
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Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Dear Blood Sugar- I'm Not Impressed with Your Behavior as of Late...
Dear Blood Sugar:
I’m not impressed with your behavior or your attitude as of late; these highs that finally go down to a crashing low have got to stop.
I thought we settled this thing peaceably yesterday afternoon. Your numbers were fantastic from lunchtime until bed. But this morning’s numbers showed that your back to throwing bitch fits again just because you can.
Look, I’m not afraid of you, and I won’t give up the fight to make you behave.
Simply put, your unruly behavior has GOT TO STOP.
I’m not afraid to test and test again, and if I have to increase my basal rate a 4th time, then so be it, I will. I may not like it, but I’ll do it.
And If I must, I will go all CGM on you! I’m not afraid to do so.
Listen, I have indeed danced with the devil in the pale moon light." But even better than that, “I know a guy” who will get me the goods in no time flat- I am from Jersey you know.
So before it comes to that, you’re going to settle down, make nice and calm the eff down!
Whatever unknown infection I’m fighting will run its course, as will your bad behavior.
I’m a nice person, I love kids and puppies and old people dig me.
I laugh out loud and from my belly, cry every time I watch The Sound of Music, and always say please and thank-you. So why the hell pick on me?
Thanksgiving is two days away, and I want PIE DAMN IT!
But more than the pie lust, I want my numbers to go back to normal, I don’t like this walking through Jell-O feeling that the highs bring. Nor do I like the shaking numbness of your crashing lows.
And if you screw with my a1c, I will shake you to your very foundation!
Do you think I enjoy having to reprimand you in public, or having to write these less then flattering letters regarding your behavior ?
NEWS FLASH: I don't, not one bit.
Seriously, step up and fly right. I’m tired of this. 5 days of bad behavior is enough.
GET OVER YOURSELF ALREADY!
Kelly Kunik
Your annoyed Hostess
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Monday, November 23, 2009
I'm So Over The Latest Round of The Blood Sugar Numbers Game
I've been battling elevated blood sugars since Friday, and while I appreciate my body giving me "a heads up" regarding any infection, I'm over both the elevated numbers and elevated insulin intake.
I'm tired of checking my blood sugar every hour to see if my numbers have gone down, and I'm tired of being annoyed when they haven't.
And when I finally get them down, they go down too far- which is something else I'm not real fond of .
I've upped my basal rates twice and it looks like I will be then upping again. Hopefully, 3rd time will indeed be the charm and everything will level out.
I (we) work so hard to maintain good health and good numbers, but at this point- I think it might actually be easier to balance the federal budget.
OK, bitch fit DONE. I will work through this! I will test, and test again until I get the numbers all nice and even like a perfectly baked brick oven pizza. Of course I reference carbs- I've had to steer clear of them for days!
Like you and everyone else who deals with diabetes, I have no choice. This is life after all, and part of life with diabetes is handling ALL the numbers, both the good and the bad.
But once this numbers game is over, I'M HAVING A SLICE OF PIZZA!!!!!
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Friday, November 20, 2009
Quotes
- "Life ain't a track meet-IT"S A MARATHON."
- Ice Cube
- "It's amazing what you can accomplish when you see someone else do the same thing."
- Diane Odell
- “Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think." Christopher Robin to Pooh”
- "Each time we face our fear, we gain strength, courage, and confidence in the doing." Michelangelo
"Your gonna need a bigger boat." Brody Jaws
" I used to be Snow White, but I drifted~"
Mae West
"Consider the source."
I am not afraid of storms for I am learning how to sail my ship. ~Louisa May Alcott
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.
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Thursday, November 19, 2009
The Community Workshop for Diabetes Was GREAT!
On Tuesday night I had the opportunity to speak at Community Workshop for Diabetes in Linwood New Jersey in honor of National Diabetes Month.
I spoke to 20 Type 1's and 2's and their counterparts and you know what? We all learned a lot!
First off, I explained that I wasn’t a medical professional, but I was an expert at living life with diabetes. Most in the group were over 60 and they all had lots of questions.
My first question after introducing myself was: What things have you heard about diabetes?
One woman raised her hand and said: I heard eating too much sugar gives you diabetes.
Another insisted that “sugar free” food was better than none-sugar free.
One gentleman raised his hand and said: I don’t have it bad-I’m not on shots.
And then the debunking of the Diabetes Myths began in earnest! You guys know me, so you can bet I had a fun time proving those myths wrong.
We talked in great detail about the different types of diabetes and what they actually meant. Most had no clue what the differences were because no one had ever taken the time to explain the different types to them.
We chatted about small changes equaling big results. Things like learning to read labels and the evils of High Fructose Corn Syrup.
Increasing their exercise routines, even if it’s taking a 10-minute walk twice a day or sitting in a chair and doing exercises with the resistance bands.
I learned that many of the people I was talking with worked very hard to control their diabetes, but that most didn’t know what an Endocrinologist or CDE was and that was frustrating. To me, Endos and CDEs are the diabetes mechanics- we need to see them every 3 months for a tune-up.
I knew something clicked when the Activities Director, who I know and love, (who is T2 and I’m constantly badgering about getting an Endo) raised her hand and said: I’m making an appointment with an Endo Kel- next time I see you, I'll have the answer you want to hear.
When another woman raised her hand and complained about having to watch what she ate, I looked at her and said: I hear you- nobody likes to be told what he or she can’t do. But nobody, diabetic or not, can eat what they want over the age of 30 with out looking like the Pillsbury Dough Boy. It’s about making smart choices. A Certified Diabetes Educator can help you to make smart choices so you can have a cupcake every now and then.
I talked about the Diabetes On-line Community and how it was a great source of both knowledge and comfort, and how even after having the disease for 30 years- It changed my life fantastic ways that I’m still trying to process!
I think the biggest impact the evening was regarding testing blood sugars. Most in the room only tested between 1 and 3 times a day. By the end of the evening 5 people who lived at the assisted living community had committed to adding a 3 pm and bedtime blood sugar for one week- just to see what the results were. That request would be written on their charts, and the staff would make sure that those extra bg tests would be administered. I was proud of them for making that commitment!
But the part of the evening that zinged my heart happened at the end.
After the discussion ended, a tall skinny man who was about 60, and his daughter came up to me. He’d really been active in the workshop and I really appreciated how much he brought to the group.
“Kelly I work so hard to take care of myself. I was diagnosed with Diabetes 24 years ago. I go to an Endo, I eat six small meals a day, but the testing is really giving me a problem as of late, I have Parkinson’s’, and my finger shakes so much that I can barely get the drop of blood onto the test strip – any suggestions?"
I looked at him for a moment and wanted to cry (but kept my game face on) because I really wanted to help him. He’d been so positive and he was working so hard to own his diabetes. Silently, I cursed Parkinson’s for disrupting his life & his life with diabetes.
I thought for a moment and remembered 2 times in my life where testing was really difficult. The first was when my left arm was in a cast and the second was when I sliced my left finger and had 6 stitches and my hand and was in some sort awkward metal splint and bandage contraption. Both injuries made testing cumbersome. It’s ironic that even though I’m left handed, I actually favor testing on my left hand instead of my right.
Anyway, I could get the blood out of most of my fingers, but the cast and or splint were bulky and I’d never quite make a clean sweep to the meter. I’d found comfort in testing in a backwards sort of way.
I looked at him and said: Well… instead of bringing your finger to your meter to test like you usually do, why not try bringing your meter to your finger instead? Your meter is bigger and easier for you to manipulate than a little test strip."
He looked at me, smiled, and said: You know what, I’ve asked so many people about this; my Dr's, the woman who does my monthly blood work, and no one ever suggested that before. It makes sense and I can’t wait to try it! THANK YOU SO MUCH.
I looked at him, smiled back and said: Your welcome-I'm so glad I could help! Your Endo is an expert at Diabetes, but patients are experts at living with diabetes. We know all sorts of tricks of the Diabetes trade because we live with it 24X7.
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Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Dear Diabetes Orgs & Society As A Whole


Well, its official (especially after my last few birthdays) I’ve been a grown up for quite some time and in some circles, I'm considered a bona fide lady - and I use that term with a wink and a smile.
I am no longer considered a cute & fuzzy child with type 1 Diabetes.
Here's the thing; while I still have a child like wonderment when it comes to cupcakes and manatees, and actually uttered the term “Ohhh, look at the Bunny!!” when I saw one running across the street the other night in an urban area, this former child with type 1 has grown up, like MILLIONS of my type 1 compatriots.
And on a side note: Growing up with Type 1 Diabetes is never a cake walk (no pun intended,) but for those of us 35 and over, it was quite the challenge.
We survived the archaic time in history (occurring after the Diabetes Ice & Prehistoric Ages) known as the Diabetes Dark Ages.
A time when “checking your sugar” meant urine testing, which required fizzy blue pills and test tubes that burned our fingers. When we needed to test on the road, Urine Test Tape was slightly less messy and definitely more portable, but just as inaccurate.
Only three types of insulin existed, Regular, Lente, and NPH, and there was no such thing as sliding scale o insulin.
Carb counting was unheard of and EVERYTHING super delicious was off limits.
It wasn’t easy, and many suffered complications from living in those dark times.
But I digress...
We, ALL the former children with Type 1 Diabetes, managed to grow up, and that’s a wonderful thing!
It's also a testament to not just "us", as people with diabetes, but to our parents and their never ending devotion to us- their children with Type 1 Diabetes.
We’ve transformed from children with type 1, into adolescents, and then to teens, and in what seemed like a New York minute, we have morphed into adulthood, just like the rest of the society.
We find jobs; we find (or our looking) for significant others. Many get married and have families.
We work the 9 to 5 daily grind and bitch about taxes, and the cost of our diabetes health care. We take care children and aging parents, while juggling all that life throws our way, including managing our diabetes 24X7.
We exist and are productive members of society.
So why don’t you remember us more?
Bottom line, we’ve done a great job managing not only life, but life with diabetes.
If we hadn’t, we wouldn’t be here.
Kids with diabetes grow up and become adults with diabetes.
Don’t forget that fact, or us.
We exist, and will continue to do so.
Thanks for hearing me out!
Your friend,
Kelly Kunik
P.S. Inspired by all those type 1's who have grown up; like Leeann & Hannah.
Those who didn't have the opportunity,
and those who are are still cute & fuzzy~
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Monday, November 16, 2009
WDD09, A Storm Called Ida, Community Outreach, & Guest Blogging~
Diabetes is a never-ending fact of life in our world. Now, we have to continue to inform, educate, and continue the fight to find a cure!
This World Diabetes Day was a bit complicated for me. I had planned to meet Hannah and LeeAnn on World Diabetes Day In Philadelphia. My job was to assist Hannah in manning her booth (which was all about YOU- The Diabetes On-line community) but the area I grew up in was recovering from a N’Easter called Ida, and her damage was massive – especially in the state where I hail from, New Jersey.
I was in South Jersey during the storm and we lost power 6 times, roads flooded and are still out, shutters blew off my mom’s house, and the beach in some parts suffered severe erosion. Atlantic and Ocean counties lost miles of beach. Ida was ferocity was intense! The Governor of New Jersey has declared a Coastal Emergency – which may ease the cost of the damage-, which is in the tens of millions was out in the storm & have posted some pics of spots near and dear to my heart that suffered.
Normally this sign is in on the beach in front of the water- not in it.
Ventnor City Fishing Pier on Cambridge Ave Beach. Normally you see a beach and the ocean~
This is the step that meets the sand on Cornwall Ave beach...usually.
This is the beach at New Haven Ave in Ventnor, NJ. The Pier looking structure is actually a wheel chair ramp for the beach. Both suffered major damage
Saturday morning was spent assessing the damage to my mom’s property. I jumped in the car and made it to Philly by 12:45. By that time I’d missed the rush, but I did come baring blue cupcakes (from a food table) and tried to help anyway I could.
I handed out Hannah’s leaflets-, which were outstanding! Hannah wrote and collated multi-colored leaflets all about Diabetes bloggers, Diabetes social Networking sites 9and their handouts) and had laptops with the screens featuring anything and everything regarding the Diabetes ON-line Community!
I also participated in some Diabetes Art Therapy with LeeAnn – which was incredibly fun and therapeutic. Lee Ann had a dizzying array of Blue Circles, markers, papers, etc! It was a great day. Hannah & Lee Ann did the DOC proud!
National Diabetes month marches on and tomorrow I’ll be speaking about life with diabetes at a Community Outreach Program in South Jersey. I’m excited and looking forward to it! My goal is to bust some diabetes myths, teach a few realities, have the group bust a gut, and turn folks on to owning their diabetes! I’ll keep you posted on how it turns out!
This month I also was given a wonderful opportunity to be a Guest Blocker (OK- I need coffee - or at least a nap!) I mean Guest Blogger over at HealthCentral.com . I wrote about Diabetes Choices and by choices, I mean attitude- and by attitude I mean a good and the not so good! Click HERE and take a look!







