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So in the Diabetes On-line community we are all working pancreases both by day, and by night - Continually on the quest for pancreas perfection and achieving Blood Sugar Nirvana.
We are litigious calculating carbs, experimenting with temporary basal rates, trying out carb combinations in all their many shapes in forms and every thing else diabetically speaking in between. We all try so hard to be the perfect definition of a what a working pancreas is. And lets face it, our health depends on our hard work and we are constantly reminded of that at every diabetes twist and turn.
And we are much harder on our ‘Working Pancreas” alter egos than we are on ourselves. I'd I'll be the first to admit, I’ve said the following, and much, much more:
Oh, Kelly you stupid pancreas, how could you not realize that forgetting to bolus for that third cup of coffee would create havoc with your numbers?
Nice job being Kelly’s pancreas, Kelly. Seriously, how could you let yourself go so low?
Really Kelly’s pancreas, REALLY. How the hell could you forget extra batteries for your pump professional - REAL PROFESSIONAL.
YES, I sound like Sybil - But at least I’m not alone!
And I know myself well enough to realize that I will continue to have these Sybil like conversations with myself.
And I'm smart enough to believe it's OK to vent - I'M ALL ABOUT VENTING.
And I'm damn glad I have people to vent with, who understand what I'm going through because they've gone through it themselves.
BUT As people LIVING with busted pancreases, we are critical of ourselves, as are parents working as full time pancreases for their children.
And sometimes (at least as far as my own quest for pancreas perfection and achieving Blood Sugar Nirvana is concerned,)
I can be so focused on the goal of perfection, that I (we) forget to remember all the lessons continually being learned on the road to perfection.
And I’ve come to realize as of late that nothing is perfect - in life or diabetes.
And if we stop learning, we stop appreciating all the knowledge that we’ve gained. And then we become stuck... and who the hell wants to be stuck - be it in dog shit or life?
Being stuck in life means that you don’t have the chance to move forward.
So I guess what trying to say is: LIVE AND LEARN, get unstuck and appreciate all those lessons you're learning.
And remember to give yourself some much needed credit for the difficult job that your doing 24X7 & 365 days a year - Because you deserve it~