Recently when I was having Brunch with friends, one of them saw me silently calculating (I guess I had the "math confuses me look" on my face) carbs of a fruit salad and she said:
Oh...., I guess you have to take more insulin to cover the fruit?? Maybe you could just ask for a side of veggies with your omelet instead of all that fruit.
In my head head I was like: Maybe you could ask for an extra side of Stupid with your oatmeal!
But I didn't. Instead I said: No, I like the fruit, no worries - I can figure it out.
Here's the thing: I (and by "I, " I mean "WE,") don't make insulin - At all.
the Bermuda Triangle of my body called The Islet of Langerhans was destroyed when I was 8 and has virtually disappeared. So in the most simple explanation that I can make re: insulin and food.
In order for me to turn food into energy, insulin (via my insulin pump) is needed. And without the elixir of life called insulin, I wouldn't be able to write this blog, because I'd be dead.
SO why should I, or anyone else for that matter equate taking more insulin to cover a certain meal or food item with being bad??
If I didn't have diabetes my pancreas would automatically secrete insulin to cover a pineapple or a cupcake, or a pineapple cupcake for that matter, so why is that considered OK?
Why is having to add your insulin externally for the very same meal as someone with a functioning pancreas a bad thing?
Insulin corrects our high blood sugars and insulin allows us to eat more than lettuce.
Insulin is not a cure for diabetes but it doesn't mean I'm not grateful to be able to inject insulin when my body needs it. Be it a bolus or a basal rate.
Plus, there's the whole getting mad ourselves when we need a correction bolus thing. Every person I know in the Diabetes On-line Community/ and off-line (including myself) beat themselves up for having to correct a high blood sugar with more insulin. I've literally been driven to tears because I've had to take many a correction bolus (for no reason except that diabetes was bitchy) to correct a stubborn blood sugar - And I know I'm not the only one.
Though, I will admit that being pissed about that sort of extra insulin intake is much more understandable to me. Still, I want us all to be grateful and acknowledge all or positive diabetes moments, instead of focusing on all our "perceived" diabetes FAILS.
Bottom Line: We need insulin to live, so let's not judge ourselves or others for the amount of insulin needed to cover a meal.
And if you have a working pancreas, why not actually learn how it works??? Then you might realize that your insulin production may vary according to all types of interesting internal and external issues. Including but not limited to; food intake, exercise, fighting infection, and whether or not the moon is in a Lunar Eclipse and the likes there of. So don't judge me or make me (and by ME, I mean US) feel bad because we have to take extra insulin to cover the occasional cupcake, couscous, or pineapple serving. Because in life, and life with diabetes, shit happens - And we deal with it, because we can and we MUST.