Thursday, August 25, 2011

Update: My Mother The Fighter

Update from Monday: She's in ICU and in a medically induced coma and on a vent. She is stabilized, acidotic and fighting sepsis.
Just had a family meeting with all her Doctors and found out that her kidney blockage is most likely congenital. Ironically, her kidney numbers are great and the kidney tube placed in her back is draining her blocked kidney quite nicely. Her heart is working at the same as before she was admitted and we are grateful for that.
It's the sepsis fire in her blood that is the culprit and causing all the turmoil.
Each little victory is extremely important & celebrated like a ticker tape parade, and counter acts the dips into despair and the fear of the "what ifs," that seem to follow the good news we receive.

The Doctors say that each day she stays stable is a major step towards recovery, which will be at a snails pace. Unlike a tragedy, which could happen incredibly fast and with almost no warning at all.

So we wait in this limbo of sorts, holding our breathes and grateful for each hour that passes by.
Every time my cell phone rings my heart skips at least 10 beats, yet I carry it where ever I am, because I am the contact person regarding my mom's care - and those times when I am away from the ICU are torture because I hate leaving her.

So we wait and we pray, and we continue to stay positive.

My mom taught us that the glass is half full - and that is what keeps me going.

I honor her wishes and focus on the positive - Except for the times in the ICU waiting room when I cry about all she's going through.
My mother taught us to fight. And my mother is a fighting very hard, so please continue to cheer and pray, and send her positive thoughts and vibes.
She has more rounds to fight.... and to win - And sepsis is a tough opponent - But one she can beat.

And we take each round and check off each passing hour with a star.

And I continue to wait and pray and think - And I find myself bargaining with a higher power.
And I ask for strength for my mom... and for me.

And I stand over her in the ICU and hold her hand, brush the hair off her face, kiss her arm and tell her how much I love her. And I tell her how great she's doing and how proud I am of her.

And then I come back to the ICU waiting room and I cry.... and I think.... and I pray.
And I talk out loud and in my head to her..... And tell her I love her and how proud I am of her..... And I tell her to please keep fighting.

40 comments:

Anonymous said...

((((( Kelly )))))) Hugs and prayers and love.

Ellen

Victoria said...

Love you! Praying hard for you, your mom and your family!!

Ilana Lucas said...

Kelly, I didn't see the first post and I just saw this; I'm so sorry you and your mother are going through this trouble and I'm sending hugs and positive energy for a speedy and steady recovery. Toronto still loves you even if it doesn't really seem like it right now.

-Ilana

George said...

Praying...



<3

Rachel said...

Continuing to think of you and your family, Kelly.

RFamHere said...

Praying for strength and healing. {{{hugs}}}

Martin Wood said...

Thoughts & prayers are with you K2. If she taught you how to fight, I've no doubts about how strong she is.

Lucy said...

More hugs to you and your family Kelly. Love reading about your mum, she sounds like a wonderful person. May she continue to have the strength to get through this.

Misty said...

Lot's of love and prayers for you all...

Michael Hoskins said...

Praying so much, Kelly. And holding positive thoughts in my heart and mind for her, you, and your family.

Lora said...

My thoughts and prayers are with your entire family Kelly. I pray for strength for you and your mom. Hang in there.

Amy said...

Oh Kelly, I'm so sorry. I just saw this. Your post brings up very fresh and painful memories for me. It was just 6 weeks ago that we spent a long and horrible week in the ICU with my step-father. It was one of the worst weeks of my life. I feel for you girl. :(

I am sending you and your mom prayers and positive thoughts for a full recovery.

Amy

Cara said...

Kelly, I'm praying for your mom and for you and your family.

Meri said...

Kelly, I love you so much. I hate that you are hurting and your mother has to fight so hard. But if she is anything like you, I'll put my money on her winning. Keep on fighting, and we'll keep on praying! Hugs!

Penny said...

Kelly, prayers are being said and positive thoughts abound for your Mama. She is truly a fighter. You are a wonderful daughter. I meant those words I spoke to you today. Each day is one more day she fights. Stay strong my dear friend. Love you.

Melissa said...

You and your family are in my thoughts. Hang in there.

Camille said...

Your mother is in my prayers and so are you! Big ((((HUGS))) my friend, stay strong and positive!

Camille xx

Annie said...

Prayers are with you and your family Kelly. Your mom sounds like a strong and amazing woman and she will do her best. I am praying for strength for all of you.

Anonymous said...

Stay strong Kelly!!!
Love & hugs
Mac.

Anonymous said...

Kelly, will keep you and your mom and entire family in my prayers.

Fellow Type 1 for 33 years.

Diane J Standiford said...

We all wish we could be there with you.

Laura @ Houston We Have A Problem! said...

Praying for you and your sweet mama! It sounds like she did a wonderful job teaching you how to be strong. You are both doing an amazing job. Love you!

Scott K. Johnson said...

Thoughts and prayers for your mom (and you)!

Kelly said...

Your words are strong with emotion, I can feel just where you are at this moment... I spent weeks at my fathers bedside for the same reasons. Endless prayers headed your way......

Kerri. said...

Hugs, love, and prayers for you and your mom, Kelly.

Kerri. said...

Hugs, love, and prayers for you and your mom, Kelly.

Kassie said...

good thoughts coming your way!

Pearlsa said...

Prayers and hugs

Val said...

Continuing to send thoughts and prayers for your mom and whole family - and and extra big (((((hug))))) for you!

Scott said...

Wishing your mom and you continued good health vibes (esp. with the weather issues coming)!

Patrick McConnell said...

Best Wishes to you and your Mom...

Patrick McConnell said...

Best wishes to you and your Mom...

Wendy said...

*BIG HUGS* I've been in a similar situation and it's so damn hard. My heart goes out to you.

As hard as it is, remember to try to take care of yourself too. If only to prevent having your mother scold you for NOT taking care of yourself when she wakes up.

Healing thoughts sent to you and yours.

Misty said...

Sending you and your mother positive thoughts and prayers for strength. I hope you feel the love of this community wrapped around you.

NeurosurgeryNP said...

Hugs. Your mom is im my thoughts and prayers. Praying hard. Sending lots of love.

Ronnie Gregory M said...

you are in my prayers Kelly I hope your Mom gets better soon..Wish your family all the best...

Meagan said...

Big prayers, hugs and love sent your way Kelly.

Wendy said...

Praying intently. You and your family have been in my thoughts continuously.

I believe it was prayer that rescued my daughter when she was in DKA at dx. She had cerebral edema and the doctors were honest when they told me that they weren't sure she could survive with all her "faculties" intact.

People prayed.

People I had never met prayed...

And today she lives.

Strong, healthy, vibrant.

I will pray for your mother, and continue to believe all things are possible.

Joanne said...

I am so behind on all my blog reading, and just got caught up on your Mom's story. Praying for all involved. she sounds like a strong, determined woman who raised her daughter to be the same.

Aliza Chana said...

(((Kelly))) HUGS!!! prayers!!! and love. lots and lots of love! the whole DOC is standing behind you and praying for you and your Mom, and your family! you are a fighter and so is your mom! keep fighting! keep fighting!