Thursday, September 22, 2011

"We Are In A Holding Pattern Of Sorts"

I haven't blogged this week for good reason.
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Mom took a turn for the worse on Saturday and today we (my siblings & extended family) wait in a holding pattern of sorts.
In a nutshell: Due to CO2 build-up, mom coded twice and was brought back with CPR. Unfortunately, she's back in ICU, on a vent, on oxygen and according to the Doctors, isn't in any pain.

So we wait for heart and neurological tests to be repeated and we hope.....

Through it all, mom continues to look beautiful.

As for me, this has been the most difficult time in my life and makes diabetes look like a walk in the park.

I love her so much and seeing her suffer breaks my heart more each day. And I feel like such a hypocrite for talking about my broken heart, because when I see all she's going through -
I have no right to complain.

25 comments:

Kim said...

I admire you so damn much for how strong you are. Sending so many good thoughts your way.

Colleen said...

Prayers for you both...

Rachel said...

oh, k2... many thoughts are still pouring your way.

Kelly said...

I will keep both you and your mother in my prayers.

meredith said...

hugs and prayers coming your way <3

Misty said...

Praying for you all..

Saly said...

You are a strong woman. Many prayers, hugs, and much love for you and your family.

Patrick McConnell said...

Best Wishes to your Mother...

Brenda F. Bell said...

Virtual hugs. It is so difficult to see the ones we love helpless, and the closer their generation comes to ours, the harder it gets.

Scott S said...

Hi Kelly, a few years ago, my mother was having her own health issues. She was in for J-Pouch surgery necessitated by autoimmune IBS/Ulcerative Colitis. While the surgery itself had been widely done and therefore not an issue, the fact that she had been taking steroids for 25 years should have meant that an endocrinologist was on the surgical team but there wasn't one, and when they stopped her steroids, she was literally on shutdown. Fortunately, they moved quickly and put her back on the steroids with a more graduated reduction, but that caused me to seriously question everything doctors and surgeons do and always ask for second opinions, and perhaps also look at life as something we cannot take for granted. I hope your mother has a speedy recovery, but please do not hesitate to look for another doctor in Philly or Princeton, perhaps even moving her to another hospital if that seems appropriate. As you no doubt have learned, doctors aren't perfect and sometimes only persistence will help us as patients.

Scully said...

Love you greatly. Hope you and your family are holding each other up. One day at a time.

NeurosurgeryNP said...

Oh K2, prayers and hugs for your mother and you. I am sorry she is going through suh a difficukt time.

Jess said...

i am so sorry your mother, as well as you and the rest of your family, have to go through all this. love and prayers to you. hang in there.

Karen G said...

Oh Kelly, I know how tough that holding pattern is. I'll be keeping you and your mom and family in my thoughts. Love you!!

Alexis Nicole said...

Sending massive prayers, love and hugs your way and your moms K2.

Loveyou.

mari said...

Hi Kelly,
I'm sorry for this time. Will pray for your mom. I know how much it is to love a mom.....

Ilana Lucas said...

*Massive Hugs*

Michael Hoskins said...

Oh, Kel. Prayers your way. May even more strength and inspiration find you, and so many hugs to you and your mom and family.

Renata said...

Sending love and thoughts your way.

Wendy said...

Your words just took my breath away. I'm so so so sorry to hear that things have taken this turn.

Praying for wisdom, peace, comfort, and strength.

Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts.

Val said...

Sending hugs, prayers, thoughts, love. Hang in there k2!

PS - my captcha is "diagatte": Italian version of a Diazon kitty??

George said...

I pray all the time for your mom and your family.

LYLB

askmanny said...

Amiga... even though I went through a very tough period with my dad a few years ago, I can't say I know how you feel or what you are going through. I can only send you the biggest hug I can send out virtually and wish that your mom gets over this soon... we're with you!

Wendy said...

Just wanted to come here to let you know I have been thinking and praying for your family.

Many hugs for peace, comfort, and strength on the road ahead.

Michael Hoskins said...

Just wanted to say I have you and your family in my thoughts, Kelly. Know that she's in that wonderful ice rink sharing in that ice capade beauty once again. All the hugs and wishes to you all.