Am I The Only One Who's OCD RE: Lab Work & My Fasting Blood Sugar?

I'm supposed to get my blood work done tomorrow for my Endo appointment next week. 

Here's the thing: My blood sugars have been in the crapper since the middle of last week, I have a nasty summer cold and sore throat and I'm currently on a temporary basal rate that fluctuates anywhere between 119% and 125% over the last 5 days. 
And FTR: I feel like crap. besides the cold and sore throat, I have a blood sugar headache and my neck hurts. 
I know it shouldn't matter if my labs show a high and or elevated fasting blood sugar -especially since I'm fighting off a cold and a sore throat.   
I know my lab work isn't about the fasting blood sugar, it's about what's going on in my body since my last Endo appointment, not the #blood sugar I had when I had my blood drawn. 
And my Endo, the Rocking Dr. J never chastises me for a high and or higher than normal fasting blood sugar - He gets that every blood sugar number has a story and wants to hear that story - with no judgement. 

But for some stupid and deep seeded reason a high fasting blood sugar matters to me - And it always has. It's like I'm #dstigma - tizing myself. 
Of course, there's a  50/50 chance that A1c has gone in the wrong direction and hyper focusing on my fasting blood sugar this time around is some sort of avoidance issue. 

My question: Am I the only one who feels the need to have an acceptable fasting blood sugar when it comes to lab work or am I just completely OCD? 

Diabetes OCD: My List Grows - My Obsession Continues~

Here's the thing - I know OCD is very real and difficult disorder to live with it - I'm not making fun of it or belittling those who live with it. 

But I do think that living with diabetes causes OC and OCD like idiosyncrasies - because seriously, how can it not? 
Diabetes makes us obsess over all sorts of things related to out life with diabetes. And that's a #fact. 

So yeah, I have a bit diabetes obsessive compulsiveness - I don’t click my heals three times every time I test my blood sugar or anything like that - But I do have some diabetes weirdness.  I wrote about some of my diabetes OCD involving ziplock bags; juice boxes, lancets, test strip box neatness, etc  a while back - And you can read my original post re: my diabetes OCD weirdness, HERE. 

But I’ve noticed that I have a few more things (OK, D compulsions) that I have and should add to my  previous list.  

For instance: When I start a new infusion set, there's a good chance that I end up filling my cannula with air twice. 

Like, I’m always afraid that I’ll forget to do that ever so important step and be left without the ability to syphon insulin from my pump. And sometimes I get distracted by a phone call or a pretty shiny object and I can't remember if I filled my cannula up yet. 

Not to mention the fact the whole filling up and starting a new reservoir thing has become so second nature to me that sometimes I can't remember if I doing the filling of the cannula part, (and even when I end up back to the blank screen) so I end up doing it twice.... Just in case. 

And yes, I know I can check the history - And sometimes I do - And other times, I just refill the cannula. 

I always make sure I have spare infusion sets whenever I switch out my handbags out.  I might forget my license or my keys, but I damn near almost always remember to throw a spare infusion set into the bag. 

Then there’s the whole making sure I have glucose tabs and  juice in the house at all times in case of low blood sugar, thing. There are some days when I’ve put off food shopping for so long that I just have a few yogurts, maybe some cheese and something that was once edible but is no long recognizable in the fridge - Not to mention a shitload of condiments. And my freezer might only have a1/2 a left over Dr. Oetker frozen spinach pizza ( I can totally bolus for it and achieve blood sugar nirvana) and a bag of frozen edemame, but you can bet your bottom dollar that I have at least two 48 ounce bottles of juice in my pantry and at least two full bottles of glucose tabs. 

I read labels like some people read books. If I’m interested in buying a food product something I’ve heard someone else talk about or I've seen on TV, I’ll google before I even go to the store just to check the carb count out. 

And lets not forget to mention my Diabetes On-Line Community obsession/addiction- I'm always online, reading blogs, chatting or advocating - But the DOC is one obsession/ addiction is one I will gladly keep and encourage others to join! 

YOU GUYS ROCK!!!!

So yeah, I’m kind of weird- and I most definitely have some Diabetes Obsessive Compulsiveness - But I know I'm not the only one. 

How do your diabetes obsessive compulsions come into play, have you developed more as time goes by or has your Diabetes OCD changed? 

It's Like Someone Moved My Diabetes Cheese.....

Cheese in motion, courtesy of The Stinky Cheese Man~

Hey is it me, or does his smile look like it's made of bacon??

So, I'm on a new reservoir cycle, and by cycle I'm going to get a little Diabetes OCD.

On Monday night around 10 p.m, I changed insulin pump reservoir.

Which really struck me as sort of weird (much like living with diabetes,) because 6 times out of 10,

I change my reservoir late afternoon.

And then last night with just four units of insulin left, I had to fill a new reservoir at 9:45 p.m. Again, much later than normal. Not that there's anything wrong with that, because there absolutely isn't.

As people with diabetes we fill up our insulin reservoirs whenever we need to, no matter where or when, or time of day for that matter.

It's just that for some reason I always seem to notice the time of day that I fill my insulin reservoir and I just automatically associate a certain time of day with changing my reservoir.

And now I'm noticing that my refill time seems to be off as of late. It's like someone moved my Diabetes Cheese!

OK, DO NOT get me started on cheese!

Anyway, has your Diabetes Cheese ever been moved or is this just another wonderfully annoying k2ism?

Diabetes Related OCD & Me

My Diabetes Related OCD is once again rearing it's ugly (though very necessary head,) as I try to organize my things & prepare for some major life changes in the not to distant future.
I've been spending a lot of time as of late cleaning, organizing & pitching things, and in the process have noticed a few things regarding my Diabetes OCD.

1. I have a thing for Ziploc bags
I have a sandwich sized Ziploc bag filled with extra insulin pump tubing, from all the times I ran into a doorknob and or dead spot and had to replace my infusion set before my reservoir set.
I also save those tiny Ziploc bags that lancets come in and use them to cart around spare pump batteries. I also have 1 large size Ziploc bag in 3 different pieces of luggage, each containing a vile of unopened test strips; several infusion/reservoir sets, some spare lancets, and an unopened box of travel size toothpaste.
2. Speaking of lancets.....
I find unused lancets in almost every desk & bureau drawer.
Also, I just changed my lancet this morning - And it feels so much better than the previous burned out/ blunt lancet!
3. Since I mentioned batteries....
I need to invest in a battery tester. WHY? Because as I clean out old handbags I'm finding those tiny zip lock battery filled bags in almost every handbag, and I have no idea if they work or not.
4. Test strips
I know I've written this before, but I love seeing my test strip boxes all lined up by expiration date in my desk drawer - It makes me feel safe, and it makes me smile. ;)
5. Juice boxes
I'm back to buying juice boxes (I prefer Apple & Eve) and keeping a 3 and or 6 pack in my nightstand drawer and one juice box on my nightstand for middle of the night lows.
Personally, I like the Sesame Street Variety Pack, tasty flavors & 14 grams of carbs a serving!
6. Let's revisit the subject of test strips...... Again
I'm finding used test strips in drawers, closets, closet shelves and I even found one in the recyclable container. What the heck!!!

So, do have any Diabetes Related OCD issues that you'd care to share?

A Diabetes Life....

A diabetes life is 24X7, 7 days a week, 365 days a year with no vacation days or time out for good behavior and is often measured in units, numbers, and division involving the numbers 12 and 15.

Our days are based on experiencing highs and lows, but much like Hobbits, we prefer to exist somewhere in the middle.

People with diabetes are strong in spirit, so much so that poking; injecting, and infusing ourselves becomes old hat, except when it doesn’t.

A life with diabetes is not a life where one can never travel light. All sorts of extras are required in order for us to make it out the door.

Many who live with diabetes exhibit OCD like behaviors due to the extras they are required to carry and we check, check, check, and check again.

We continually wonder: did we bring enough? Enough insulin, batteries, test strips, glucotabs, batteries, larabars, needles and infusion sets.

We spend an awful lot of time wonder about carb counts and extended duel wave bolus options.

PWDs wonder if the “Don’t Ask Don’t Tell” policy applies to diabetes and our careers, our friends and potential dates.

On occasion, PWDs engage in what some would consider high-risk behaviors involving noodle-based foods such as Chinese and spaghetti.

Our collective wish is to own our disease, help others to do the same and reach the highest levels of “Blood Sugar Nirvana".

Our ultimate goal is to see a cure for diabetes in our lifetime.

BUT sometimes we forget that a life lived with diabetes is indeed a life being lived - and before the summer of 1921 (insulin’s discovery) and January 1922, when Leonard Thompson became the first PWD to be injected with insulin, that just wasn’t the case.