Showing posts with label type 2. Show all posts
Showing posts with label type 2. Show all posts

Sunday, April 21, 2024

It's Been A Minute

Hey there DOC peeps  - it's been a minute. Ok, it's been millions of minutes  - and I'm sorry about that. 

I've missed you DOC, SO MUCH. I'm sorry for mostly lurking for these millions of minutes. Life hit the fan post Covid, life wise, job wise, burnout in all dimensions wise.  

I started a job outside advocating that wasn't for me - after 14 months, we parted ways this past February. Timing wise, I lost my oldest sister with diabetes the day before my initial interview in 2022, her husband passed this past October. I'll share what happened to my sister in another post - her story deserves it's own post - actually, more than 1 post. 

I tore my planter fascia medial band in half on my Diaversary this past October and It hurt like hell. 

I DO NOT RECOMMEND. Was on crutches for the first 6 weeks, followed by PT, plus another week of crutches due to Turf Toe, stage 1 (thanks to rain-boots lacking support and a puckered sidewalk, causing my big toe to hyper-extend on the same planter fascia  foot,) the week before Easter.

Then a pinched nerve made an appearance on the same foot.

Continue to heal and my foot-ware currently alternates between Hoka’s and recovery clogs.  It's been a process. 

A lot of 4 steps forward, 2 steps back - which is exactly what the doctor told me the recovery would be like back in October.

What has all of the above taught me? Oh hey, thanks for asking. 

1. Life can change in a minute and holding on to your resilience isn't easy - it's fucking hard and takes work - no matter what aspect of your life you find yourself requiring resilience in. 

There are times when standing back up takes everything you have - especially when all you want to do is put the covers over your head and stay in bed. No matter how many times we stumble and fall, getting back up is key.

2. No matter how many people you lose in your life, losing them hurts. Even if your relationship was no longer what it once was…or what you wished it could have been.

3. Continually remind yourself of the good qualities that you possess, OFTEN. Recognize them. Celebrate them. Celebrate yourself.

4. Burnout is real. Diabetes burnout is real. Burnout in all dimensions is real. When it rains it pours and sometimes multiple types of burnout can hit at the same time. 

5.The diabetes online community is a constant beacon, a light that illuminates - even when you have to take a step back for a while - it's always there - igniting the way forward...and home - and reigniting your advocacy spark.  

Tuesday, October 31, 2023

46


Selfie in front of Haunted House - not my house ;) 

Hey, it's me - back from who the hell knows, but blogging just the same. 

I can't tell you how many times I've sat staring at my screen to write an actual post, but this time I really am back. I miss blogging, I miss being a full participant in the DOC, instead of a part-time participant/and a constant lurker. 
So I'm reframing and here I am.

Much has happened - some good stuff, some NOT So good - I'm saving the deets for other posts. 

Today's post is devoted to the number 46 - NO, NOT THAT 46, BITE YOUR TONGUE!

I'm talking 46 years living my life with t1D.

A. HOW THE HELL IS IT YEAR 46? 

B. HOW THE HELL IS MY DIABETES OLDER THAN I AM? EASY, I'M A WITCH ;) 

Celebrating year 46 is different this year - As of yesterday, I've been sidelined thanks to a torn medial band of my Planter Fascia - currently sporting a really ugly ortho shoe (but oh so much more comfortable than a boot,) shiny chrome crutches, and a cortisone shot that hurt like a bitch and requires a skyhigh temp basal rate. 

So yeah, this year's diaversary will be quiter - but a celebration none less. 

Here's my Diabetes Gratitude list for year 46 - Hope you dig~

1. The color yellow. Yellow is bright and shiny and makes me smile. Quite frankly, I could use more bright and shiny in my life - YAY YELLOW.

2. Rooibos tea - If you don't know what it is, check it out and give it a try. I suggest Pumpkin, Chai, and Vanilla flavored rooibos teas.

3. The ocean: We are 3/4's salt water for a reason. No wonder the ocean feels like coming home

4. Dogs. I love dogs! Dogs are the best and I will fight you on it!

5. Nailing a carb bolus for totally bolus worthy grub!

6. Cheese. I am cheese slut. I own it.

7. The color purple. Purple is regal and beautiful and comes in multitude of shades that make me feel good and bring out my eyes ;) 

8. Shells: Shells are beautiful; intricate, sculptures from the sea that turn into sand. Without shells there would be no beach. Think about that next time you see a shell. Never overlook the broken shells - they posed a beauty all their own - gifts from the sea that are no less valuable than their non chipped counterparts. Broken shells prove time and again that broken is indeed beautiful, be it our pancreati or a shell.

9. Red lipstick.

10. Soup: I'm a Souper... dare I say a Super Souper. For real, I make over 20 types of soup from scratch - and counting. Making soup is one of my Love Languages. If I make you soup from scratch, it means I care about you very much and love you lots.

11. Diabetes Tech: I love and appreciate my diabetes tech. With that being said. It's not perfect - nothing works as well as a fully functioning pancreas. There are too many who can't afford said tech - or have insurance that won't cover (or cover enough,) for said diabetes tech. That shit's gotta change.

12 PBS: If you don't watch PBS - maybe you think it's too stuffy, or that it doesn't have shows you'd be interested in - you'd be wrong. 
My current PBS obsession is season 2 of Annika. Membership for PBS Passport is $5 bucks a month and totally worth it! Also, your monthly fee is tax deductible.

13. Reading. LOVE to read - I just wish I had time to read the books I want to read, not the things I have to read. With that being said, I make time to read and sometimes reread. I've also discovered fan fiction - VERY INTERESTING.

14. A well made leather boot with a sexy heel - which I can't wear right now, BUT SOON.

15. Manatees. Manatees are amazing and incredibly underrated. Dophins get more screen time because of their antics, orcas make the news because they show off their smarts AND bitchiness - they toss seals around like a football before they go in for the kill. GOOGLE IT. Sharks, don't even get me started. Three words: JAWS and SHARK WEEK. Whales...whales are all sorts of majestical - they deserve the spotlight... for the most part. If you love manatees - you know how smart and loving and wise they are  -  much more so than they let on... at least at first glance. If you don't know about manatees, take the time to find out abou them.

16. My nieces & nephews. I LOVE THEM. I'M GRATEFUL FOR THEM. MY WORLD IS A MUCH BETTER PLACE BECAUSE OF THEM.

17 The DOC. I love you, I am so incredibly grateful to have you in my life. You've changed my world.

18. Insulin: Without insulin I'd be dead. Actually, without insulin l wouldn't have existed because my father would have died before he had a chance to make me with my mom. With that being said, INSULIN IS STILL TOO DAMN EXPENSIVE. TOO MANY ARE GOING WITH OUT OR RATIONING TO MAKE THEIR STASH LAST LONGER. THAT SHIT'S GOTTA CHANGE.

19. The beach in the winter = MAGICAL.

20. Friends who are family - You know who you are - I love you. I am grateful for you.

21. My dishwasher.

22. Jewelry. Yep, I love jewelry. Real, fake, custom, vintage, or made from macaroni, like the necklace my nephew made me when he was in nursery school. I LOVE JEWELRY.

23. Daffodils: Daffodils are bright, beautiful, give me hope, make me happy, and remind me of my mom. Daffodils are resiliant. I try to embrace my inner daffodil whenever I can. And between you and me, I need to remember to embrace my inner daffodil more.

24. Dark chocolate.

25. Vanilla. FTR, vanilla is not boring - I love it more than chocolate. There I said it - I stand by more words.

26. Vodka: Potatoes and grains are the fruit of my people. Vodka is potatoes and or grain in liquid form.

27. Going to the movies. 

28. Broadway Musicals: I LOVE BROADWAY AND BROADWAY MUSICALS. I LOVE SHOWTUNES. And it sucks to be you if you don't.

29. Really good sex.

30. Frida Kahlo: Her art is addictive, her story is compelling, inspiring and it will break your heart.

31. Spicy food. Spicy food is my favorite. 
About half the dishes I make from scratch are spicy - it’s part of who I a. If anyone wants to buy me a Diaversary gift - I'm running out of Siriracha thanks to the 2023 Sriracha Shortage, more on said shortage can be found, HERE.

32. Spending time with friends and family. We all need more time with those we love and who love us.

33. Sleeping late. FTR, I was off today and wanted to sleep until 8AM. I was up at 5:30. W.T.F.

34. Hoka Bondi's. Like walking on clouds. The Bondis are especially good if you happen to have high arches and a wide toe box. They also fit most custom orthotics. I'm going to need multiple pairs once I'm done with the crutches. CC: HOKA.com.

35. Fresh mint in my water - or my mojito/vodka. Little things mean a lot. Fresh mint is refreshing and delish. I suggest you grow some in a pot. DO NOT plant mint in the ground - it will takeover your entire garden and strangle any and all plants and shrubs.

36. Black Violin - also Black Violin.

37. Post Modern Jukebox.

38. I love long walks.... which I currently cannot participate in - BUT SOON!

39. Halloween: I love dressing up and being someone/something else for the night. I'm a theater geek so it totally makes sense.

40. The colors green and blue and in all shades. The colors of earth and water. Also, both color spectrums bring out my eyes and since this is all about me.....

41. #Proudauntiealert in all dimensions: In no particular order, just a sprinkling of many, many, moments #proudauntiealerts can be found HEREHERE & HERE

42. Bolus worthy pizza. If you know, you know.

43. Childrenwithdiabetes.org

44. Peanut Butter. I wish I hated peanut butter, but I don't. That will never happen.

45. Massages. God I love a good massage - and I've been told by HCPs that I need them. If only insurance covered them. SIGH.

46. YOU. I'M GRATEFUL FOR YOU.

I'm grateful that you're here on this planet and reading my blog. Take my word that the world is much better place with you in it. YOU ARE EXCEPTIONAL. 

Monday, October 31, 2022

45

Hey, it’s been a while and I'm sorry about that. Between trying to navigate a Covid world; a move that was anything but easy, and some other stuff I’m still trying to process, blog post reserve has been drained. Burnout was and is is real. The good news: 

A. I’m working onseveral new posts, including one on my thoughts on the Omnipod 5, one on local D buddies. Happy to say that blog posts in process are very real and will be posted soon and I am so very glad and thankful! 
B. Today is my 45th Diaversary! Yep, today marks 45 years of living with diabetes. 45 years ago a little girl with a big imagination and extensive vocabulary entered the hospital on Halloween morning with a busted pancreas and was diagnosed with T1. 
This year’s celebration is quiet, mostly because it’s Monday during a week that requires a lot of juggling on my end.
 Every year on October 31st I write a list of things I’m grateful for and in no particular order. Here’s this year’s list. 

  1. Cheese - in all shapes and forms
  2.  My nieces and nephews 
  3. Good books 
  4. Tasty tea - super addicted to Rooibos
  5.  Salt air 
  6. Dark chocolate topped with sea-salt
  7.  The color green 
  8. Cheeseburger, medium rare, topped with the works - bonus points for jalapeños 
  9. Vintage Costume Jewelry - I collect it 
  10. “Real Jewelry.” I collect that too :) 
  11. Dogs. Dogs are awesome and I’ll fight you on that 
  12. Cooking for the people I love 
  13. Making a tasty meal from scratch for myself. Cleaning up after? Not so much 
  14. Traveling - I miss traveling. I need to travel. I have over 55,000 air miles - time to cash them in 
  15.  The color yellow. I love yellow - it reminds me of my mom and daffodils and the sun. Truth be told I had a thing for yellow and purple as a little girl. Still do 
  16. Really good extra virgin olive oil 
  17. Exploring - going to a new place and discovering its nooks and crannies; locals and spots that make said place magic
  18. Clouds 
  19. Photography - I love taking pictures 
  20. Spicy sushi 
  21. A meal out with friends 
  22. Atlantic City Italian bread. GOOGLE IT 
  23. My DOC family and friends - you are my Friends For Life 
  24. Swimming in the ocean 
  25. PBS 
  26. Peanut Butter 
  27.  Manatees 
  28. My friends kids 
  29. Hanging out with my nieces and nephews as friends
  30. The smell of honeysuckle bushes 
  31. Sriracha 
  32. Live theater 
  33. Going to the movies
  34. A horse named Stormy 
  35. A dog named Misty 
  36. A cat named kidden 
  37. Serving my tea from a yellow porcelain teapot I bought for 10 bucks at an estate sale years ago 
  38. Presecco and wine 
  39. Tito’s Vodka 
  40. golden hour 
  41. The beach 
  42. My parents 
  43.   My sister 
  44.   My busted pancreas, aka my diabetes dragon. FTR, I've made friends with my diabetes dragon - her name is Mabel 
  45.  Me 
  46.  YOU.

Saturday, October 31, 2020

Diaversary

Me embracing my inner Moira Rose on my Diaversary. Video to follow.

 It’s been quite a while since I’ve written on my blog - between COVID; lockdown, work, delaying my big COVID meltdown until end of June/beginning of July and followed two weeks late by a Lis Franc sprain at the end of July, working, and hustling for work, pen to paper and writing about myself for my own blog was damn impossible. 

 I kept promising myself I was going to write a blog post tomorrow - but then when tomorrow arrived I’d push it off again. 

But I’m writing one today!


43 years ago today I was diagnosed with diabetes and spent my Halloween in the hospital instead of trick or treating and have spent the past 43 years living and sharing good, the bad, and the diabetesalicious of it all. 

Every year I write a Diaversersary post listing things I love/ I’m thankful for and in no particular order. - with the total corresponding to the number of years I've had diabetes. 

2020, I won’t let you take that away. 


So here’s my 2020 list of 43 things that I'm grateful for and hope you can relate!

  1. My people. My friends, family,including YOU. You all make my world a better place!
  2. Speaking of friends - Lucy the Elephant.
  3. Smart Insulin - you’ve made my life easier and my body healthier. With that being said, let's get your prices lower - people are dying because they can't afford it!
  4. My garden. It made my summer, which was spent social distancing and nursing a bum ankle much easier to bear. It also made my salads much tastier. 
  5. Dove Ice Cream Mini Bars, variety pack. Seriously life-changing.
  6. Sex
  7. Speaking of life-changing, I’m thankful for Time in Range - it’s a diabetes game changer!
  8. My honest and caring mechanic  - Thanks for being honest and giving me a great price when my car was having issues  - Very much appreciated!
  9. The beach. Even though I didn’t spend a lot of time on this year (because people were being idiots re: social distancing,) I’m so grateful to have grown up at the beach and to have access to it as an adult.
  10. The Ocean. See number 8.
  11. Being able to attend MOMA’s Dorothea Lange' Words & Pictures Exhibit this past September.
  12. Dorothea Lange’s photography
  13. Being an Aunt because it's a fucking gift from the heavens. I love my nieces and nephew so much! 12 unique and individual works of art.
  14. Democracy. 
  15. Judge Ruth Bader Ginsburg - May her memory be a revolution.
  16. Music. Silly to say, but music makes my heart sing.
  17. Waking up and realizing that I have an hour before my alarm goes off.
  18. Becoming a better baker. Thanks to my friend Pam (who bought me a beautiful and solid bundt pan last Christmas because she thought it would help me chill I made my first bundt cake from scratch a few months later. During lockdown I perfect banana and banana blueberry muffins, this week I’m attempting pumpkin :) 
  19. NetFlix  - you know why.
  20. Hoka ONES. Seriously comfy sneakers.
  21. Schitt’s Creek: Best. Show. Ever. 
  22. Tiny Beautiful Things: Advice on Love and Life From Dear Sugar - book by Cheryl Strayed . READ IT.
  23. My camera. I bought a Canon 35 mm camera a few years ago with 300 and 80 degree lenses. LOVE IT.
  24. Insulin pumps - making my life easier since 2002.
  25. Dark chocolate caramels with sea salt. AMAZING.
  26. My Mac laptop I bought 16 months ago.
  27. CGM. It makes life easier - except when it doesn’t. 
  28. Dogs. DOGS RULE
  29. Homemade Soup. I have mad soup skillz.
  30. The color green. It makes me feel healthy, beautiful, balanced  - and it makes my eyes pop!
  31. Paper plates - Lockdown means dishes are never done. Paper plates make my life easier. The environmentalist in me struggles with this, the chief dishwasher (ME,) is thankful and works especially hard to be environmentally conscious in other areas of my life.
  32. Both Sweetzels and Ivins Spiced Wafers
  33. Cheese. I’m a cheese lover and self-proclaimed cheese slut. 
  34. PBS 
  35. Lipstick. I wear it every day and under my mask!
  36. Ray Collins Photography 
  37. Reeses Peanut Butter Cups
  38. Goldenberg Peanut Chews - Original Dark Chocolate
  39. Prosecco 
  40. Nature
  41. Jewel color tones. I’m just not into tan -with that being said, I appreciate a warm and smartly tailored camel hair coat.
  42. Jewelry. I love jewelry - whether it’s a macaroni necklace a little made me, costume, or the “real stuff - I LOVE SPARKLE.
  43. The Diabetes Online Community. You’ve changed my life and life with diabetes for the better and I love you all so much!

Friday, April 10, 2020

T2D Healthline App - Another Option of People With T2 Diabetes


Three things about me and which I think you already know… but just in case you don’t: 
  1. I’m all about us (every single person living with diabetes and no matter the type,) working together as a diabetes team! I live with t1 diabetes - I always support, continually learn from, and actively fight for my LADA Diabetes and T2 diabetes brothers and sisters - ALWAYS. 
  2. I’m all about people with diabetes having as many options and choices as possible when it comes to living with diabetes - in the form of treatment plans (medications, meal plans, diabetes robot parts,) being an active participant in your diabetes - using your diabetes voice and partnering with your Doctor re your diabetes treatment, and participating in the DOC (diabetes online community,) including digital diabetes spaces that fit the individual PWD (person with diabetes,) needs. 
  3. Diabetes isn’t one size fits all, what works for one person, may not work for another. Diabetes choices and options are key components that make living our diabetes lives easier! 
Which is why when Healthline reached out to me and wanted to share their new app - appropriately named, T2D Healthline - I agreed to listen to what they had to say. 

And you know what? I liked what I heard. It’s good stuff. 
So I agreed to partner with T2D Healthline to help spread the word (and host some app chats,) about their new free app, which is why I’m sharing this information with you. 
What you do with the info is up to you! 

In a nutshell, the T2D Healthline app provides people living with type 2 diabetes another alternative in the form of community, a place to connect and share with others who “get it.” 
The free app allows you to engage in realtime chats, have access to a virtual library of Healthline articles, icebreaker questions to help you… well, break the ice with other community members. 
The app also provides you with a daily “match” option.  
As in being matched up with a new t2 buddy, daily (and only if you want, the choice is up to you - no pressure,) while providing a private/safe space to connect with others looking to receive (and provide,) support re: living with type 2 diabetes.
And some other cool stuff~ 

Bottom line: We need to keep and stay connected - especially right now - to say it’s been a strange spring is an understatement! 

Keeping connected with others helps us to feel less isolated, more empowered, and better equipped to handle our lives… and our lives with diabetes. 

Download Healthline’s free T2D Healthline App, HERE
Check it out, explore, connect, let me know what you think! 

Thursday, March 5, 2020

This Is My Brain: This Is My Brain On Diabetes - And Sometimes It's Exhausting

Diabetes is so damn different every day and at every turn - it's a goddamn crapshoot!
For example, 3 days ago I filled up a new omnipod with 150 units of insulin (180 unit is normally too much,/as in too wasteful for me,) and placed it on my side boob.

95% of the time, boob sites work really well for me. 

This boob site is working exceptionally well. 

We’re talking almost a solid flatline on my Dexcom for the past 72 hours, except for normal post-meal spikes and 3 actual low blood sugars. 

All of the above had me seriously thinking: Oh my God, did somebody kickstart my pancreas and neglect to tell me?
Anyway, pod expires in two hours, at 6:11 pm tonight. 
I currently have 36 units in my pod. Even if I keep it in for an additional 3 hours (half the 6 hour grace period after the time on your pod officially runs out,) and bolus for my dinner, I’ll still have more than 31 units left. 

Do I really want to start a new pod at almost 10 pm at night and post-meal? 

I DO NOT. 

WHY? Because then I’ll have to stay up and make sure everything is copasetic with my new site/pod. If it isn’t  - I have to start the process all over again. I have to work tomorrow - I don't want to be up super late!
Not to mention the fact that if I change out this pod late night tonight, that means in all probability, I'll have to change out the next pod late at night- unless I can sync my morning alarm with the 6 hour grace period and make sure I have enough insulin in said pod during that grace period. Or I run out of insulin before the pod times out. Or an occlusion alarm goes off. 
Or 390 other different diabetes wrenches getting thrown into the equation.
This isn't projecting, this is what is required for those of us wearing diabetes robotical parts. 
SIGH. 

If I put less insulin in my new pod, there’s a 50% chance that diabetes will switch it’s bitch-switch and I’ll go through my normal 150 units in less than 72 hours and will have to change out my site early - unless of course, that doesn’t happen. 
Again - who the hell knows what will be required from a new infusion site and no matter what brand of robot pancreas you’re using. YES, the same happens with tubed pumps.

Or like... do I put less insulin in the new pod and do correction injections from the remaining insulin in my previous pod? 
For fuck sake, insulin is the 5th most expensive insulin on the planet and I don’t want to waste it!

Yeah, this is only a small portion of the mostly necessary and seriously annoying diabetes minutia that runs through people living with diabetes minds and on a daily basis. 

This is also why when a healthcare professional asks me how much insulin I take a day I look at them with daggers in my eyes. OK, maybe not daggers - especially if they're nice. But I definitely channel my inner 13-year-old self and roll my eyes at them and I'm all like, WHATEVER.

Every day with diabetes is different - and requires a different amount of insulin - and for dozens of different reasons. And there are dozens if not hundreds, maybe thousands, (but for real it feels like MILLIONS,) of different diabetes scenarios having nothing to do with site changes or insulin or carbs.  

AND SOMETIMES IT'S GODDAMN EXHAUSTING. 

This my brain. This is my brain on diabetes.  

This spot-on cartoon was created by the amazing Haidee Merritt.
To see more of her work, laugh your butt off and maybe buy her books,  click HERE. 

Thursday, February 6, 2020

Diabetes, BG, A1C: Here's What Happened When I Focused On Time-In-Range For 99 Days



Me getting all scientifical.
Not really, it's Google Doodle's salute to Hedy Lamarr's contributions to science. 
This is what happened when I committed to focusing on TiR (Time In Range,) for 99 days,  re-embraced my inner D scientist and used my body as lab and experiment.

Diabetes Weaponry: Omnipod OG, Omnipod PDM, Dexcom G6, Glooko, G6 App, Clarity App, Apple Laptop,6+iPhone, The Diabetes Online Community. 

Longer than usual post and it's straight from the heart.  
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There was a time in my adult life where I kicked diabetes ass with A1c’s in the upper 6 range. Times change, life got hectic, adulting is complicated and I’ve been struggling with my A1c on and off since 2011. 

I've tried all sorts of things to get back in my diabetes comfort zone. Some things helped, some things didn’t. 

My a1c has fluctuated between 7 and 7.8 since 2011 - with the exception of one lone 6.9 in January of 2017.

7/17 - 11/17: My a1c refused to budge from 7.4. 

07/18: Officially diagnosed with Hashimoto’s. My a1c dipped slightly after the Dx to 7.3, then stubbornly increased every 3 months until 10/19. 

10/21/19 Endo Visit
A1C: 7.8. The “Rocking Dr. J” and I were incredibly frustrated in all dimensions. 
Dr. J, his right hand and my AMAZING Diabetes Care & Education Specialist Cheryl, and I had managed my diabetes together since the late ’90s and we’d achieved much.  
But we'd encounter A1c roadblocks in recent years, and 2019s continual A1C creep in the wrong direction was a collective drain on my Diabetes team.

Dr. J looked at me and asked: Kelly, do you what Time In Range is? 

Indeed I did. TiR (Time in Range,) is the amount of time you spend in your preferred blood glucose target range on a daily basis. It doesn’t mean you don’t have high blood sugars. 
Of course you do you have diabetes. But you have more time when your blood sugars are within your set target range. 
Your TiR is determined between you and your healthcare team. 
TiR was one of the big buzz words at ADA, AADE, and DTM. 

My personal time in range is set between 70 and 180 during the day, with an evening TiR between 70-170. Clearly, that wasn't happening. 

I agreed to upload my Omnipod PDM and Cgm data to Cheryl so we could make tweaks, and promised that for the next 99 days I’d focus on TiR. 

I waited until I hit the parking garage before I started to cry.
FUCK THIS. I was done. Come hell or high water I was going to share my diabetes data, focus on my TiR one day at a time, record my observations, and hopefully learn from them.

I was going to re-embrace my inner D scientist and use my body as both lab and experiment.

And So It Begins
10/22/19
I uploaded my devices to Glooko and Clarity, emailed Cheryl and sent her a share code. 

Starting TiR
Glucose numbers weren’t terrible. 
My TiR for the previous 3 months was 57%, thirteen percent lower then the 70% goal we’d set when I started CGMing in March of 2019.

Cheryl noticed that my overnight basal seemed too high and the culprit might be my constantly fiddling with my temp basals - which seemed to be “reactive re: increased glucose levels, not proactive - as in preventing them.” 
She offered several options and told me the choice was mine. 

I gave up all control and told Cheryl it was her call. 
We changed my carb ratio to 7, between 12pm to 12am and lowered my 12am basal  to 0.90 

Observations
I noticed more positive numbers immediately. 

In the beginning, I looked at my TiR, but not every day. I celebrated when my TiR increased by a percentage point. I was OK with it when it didn’t. 

As the weeks passed, I checked TiR almost daily - except when I didn’t check at all. 

Dietary Tweaks
In October of 2018, I made a goal to maintain my weight during the holidays & I did. 
I made the same goal in October of 2019.

November
I switched from half-& Half to full-fat Oatly milk in my morning coffee, in the hopes of reducing my post morning coffee bg spikes. 
Also: I needed to break my 1/2&1/2 habit - I was going through 1 quart a week! 
Oatly Full Fat milk didn’t taste disgusting in my coffee, contained more carbs and fat per 8 oz serving than half-and-half, but since I was only using 2 or 3 ounces, I bolused for the same amount of carbs. 

My post-coffee morning spike numbers time reduced by half. 

I upped my plant-based protein consumption at home to roughly 75% and stuck with “anything goes” when eating out. 
And yes, I’m still addicted to and enjoying cheese as a food group, fish, the occasional cheeseburger with the works and the likes thereof.
I'm not eating birdseed and I'm most definitely eating carbs! 

Practicing Conscious Pre-Meal Bolusing
I committed to pre-bolusing 20 minutes before every meal - and I noticed decreased numbers and shorter time re:post-meal blood sugar spikes. 

I continued with my separate morning coffee bolus (which I've been doing for a couple of years now,) followed by my breakfast meal bolus. 
Depending on my blood sugar and the dinner I was making, I began giving a blood glucose correction bolus while prepping/making my dinner, followed by a carb/bg bolus 10 minutes before the meal was ready. 

I Looked At My CGM Arrow Before Post Meal Rage Bolusing
Patience is a virtue - one I have - except when I don't. 
After I gave myself a meal or correction bolus, I did my best not to automatically rage-bolusing if my BG went passed a certain number and under a certain amount of time,
post-meal. 
If my CGM arrow was flat - I forced myself to wait. Nine times out of ten, my glucose number would start decreasing - just like it was supposed to. 

A-HA Moment
11/14/2019 
I covered (DTM) the Diabetes Technological Society’s meeting for Ascensia Diabetes Care, where I sat in on a discussion re: glycemic variability metrics,TiR & heart damage.  
It was the first time the whys behind the diabetes/heart disease connection were explained to me clearly - from the inside - in terms of the damage long term time spent outside of range does to the heart’s arteries and blood vessels. 
It was a goddamn game changer. 

I’d always assumed “diabetes and heart issues automatically went hand-in-hand,” because, since my DX as a child, that’s what I’d always been told. 

"That” and of course, genetics.  
My family genetics is interesting. 
My diabetes team knows my genetic health history because I shared it with them from the get-go - and we’ve been proactive re: my both diabetes and good heart health since the mid 90s. 

With that being said: I thought about the heart/TiR connection for weeks, and every time I looked at my cgm, did a finger stick, or pre-bolused for a meal. 
It was and is an excellent motivator.
You can read about that life-changing session by clicking HERE, scroll down to Day 2:Diabetes Data From All Sides, and give a read.

Insulin Reduction 
At the beginning of December, I noticed that my 24-hr daily insulin totals were decreasing. By January my 24-hour daily insulin totals had dropped to the mid-30s and mid-40s, versus pre TiR experiment insulin totals in the mid-40s to 50s.

Exercise
Tendonitis was slowly easing up. I started walking three days a week (20-40 minutes,) in December, and up until I sprained my ankle falling down the steps (and totally sober,) the Friday before Christmas. 
The ankle is better. I need to get back on the exercise horse.

PARADOX
12/25/19 
Lots of Christmas cookies and pumpkin bread, and a freakishly good time TiR.
On the flip side and on odd rando days, the opposite occurred - and that was OK. 

Technical Difficulties 
1/03/2020 
Uploaded devices to Glooko And Clarity, and sent Cheryl a share code. 
After looking at my data, she realized I had a faulty transmitter.
HOW? While my TiR was 62%, only around 30% of my actual data had uploaded to Clarity since the transmitter’s November start date. 
Heads up: If your G6 app graph lines continually stop and start when you're less than 20 feet away, you probably have a faulty transmitter.

My Clarity data was unusable in determining the last 60+ days of my TiR. 


I. WAS. LIVID.  
I let Dexcom know it. They overnighted me a replacement transmitter, plus two replacement sensors.

I kept moving forward. 

Cheryl suggested that we stick with my current settings, told me to continue doing what I was doing and to send her my data uploads a few days before my January 30th Endo appointment. 

Days Outside of Range Didn’t Make Me Feel Like A Failure
Don’t get me wrong, it was (and is) annoying, and sometimes I’m downright pissed.  
BUT... I realized that the days my blood sugar graph was full-on wonky, were occurring less often.
Percentage-wise, my day/clusters of days spent outside of range weren’t nearly as horrible as they could have been.

1/21/2020
9 days before my Endo appointment, the first day of my period, and the first time I’d stepped on the scale since before Christmas. 
Even with bloating, I weighed 3 lbs less than my pre-Christmas/pre-period weight. Usually, I'm 3 or 4 pounds heavier than my normal weight. WEIRD. 

1/27/2020
Received email from Labcorp informing me my results were available via their portal. 
Ignored it. I know me - I’d start googling and obsessing. 
Nope, I had shit to do. I'd let Dr. J tell me.

1/28/2020
Uploaded my data to both Glooko and Clarity, sent Cheryl the Clarity share code and she promised to get back to me by my Thursday afternoon appointment.

1/29/2020
Weighed myself. 
Immediately stepped off the scale and then back on and weighed myself again. 
I’d dropped 8 pounds since Christmas. 
Did I need a new scale? 
Put on a pair of jeans that had been way too tight in July - and not in a good way. 
They fit. 

1/30/2020 - Endo Day
Checked email on my phone in the waiting room and no surprise because she always keeps her word, there was an email from Cheryl, who works from home on Thursdays.  

According to Cheryl,(who was super stoked,) my TiR for the past 99 days: 84% with 1% in the low range. 

COME AGAIN? 
Before I could process or reply, I was called back by the PA to get weighed (still 8 lbs lighter,) and blood pressure checked in one of the waiting rooms. 

I tried not to think about my labs.
30 and 60 day estimated A1C on my CGM clocked in at 6.8, but with transmitter issues, 
I wasn’t banking on anything.

10 minutes later Doctor J walks in: What’s going on Kelly? 
OK, let me rephrase: What have you been doing differently? 
And how are you feeling about the changes you made?  Your A1c is great! 

Me: What’s my A1C? 
Dr. J: You didn’t check the portal? 
Me: NOPE. 

Dr. J: Your A1C is 6.7%, down 1.1 points from last time! I’M SO HAPPY. 
I don’t know what your TiR is, because I haven’t talked with Cheryl yet and she’s not here today. I can let you know tomorrow - unless she’s already emailed you? 
The rest of your labs( which we went over,) are awesome - And you’ve dropped 8 pounds. I’m so proud of you!

Me: You’re sure my a1c is 6.7?
Dr. J: Yes.
Me; You’re positive
Dr. J: YES.

Me: Cheryl emailed 30 minutes ago. My TiR is 84% with 1% lows

Dr. J: AWESOME. We want TiR to be 70% - I am so proud of you!
What changed for you Kel?

Me: Honestly? Focusing on TiR one day at a time is a lot easier than focusing on a good A1C for three months. 
Then we had a heart-to-heart and I shared my 3-month TiR observations. 

I left feeling happy and a little weird - but in a good way.

CONCLUSION
Whatever happens between now and my next Endo appointment, I’m taking it one day, one daily TiR at a time because it’s working for me. 

People with diabetes are continually bombarded re: long term diabetes management, complications, etc. And I absolutely understand why - but sometimes the weight of all that knowledge gets incredibly heavy to carry.


For me, managing my diabetes one day at a time re: TiR is not only easier, it's also more gentle and less overwhelming for me to process emotionally, mentally, and physically - both on paper and in real life.