I take off my glasses, rub my temples and stare at my computer screen - It's blank and I have work to do.
My head hurts and I'm thirsty - Most likely because I'm blowing a midmorning blood sugar of 308.
My internal Magic Eight Ball thinks it's due to a 114 breakfast blood sugar and a miscalculation for a 1/4 cup of low in carb high in fiber with almond milk, coffee and me being on the 4th day of a 6 prednazone Rx.
Oh. bytheway, big shoutout to this bronchitis that won't stop stalking me and is requiring me to take another antibiotic, plus a 6 day Rx for the oral the steroid, (high blood sugar inducing & cracktastic hight temporary basal rate required) prednazone.
Ironically, I don't feel tired, just incredibly annoyed and really thirsty.
I keep working through the high blood sugar and all it brings. It's Monday and I don't have time for this shit.
Someone in my office offers to do a coffee run and asks me if I want some.
I tell them "thanks, but no thanks," and keep working. My blood sugar is 242 and I don't feel like doing any more Diabetes Math than I have to this morning.
The next thing I know, it's almost 2 hours have passed and my blood sugar is now 169.
I wonder to myself if I should up my temporary basal rate of 190% back up to 210%.
I'd dialed down the temp basal rate last night before bed and still needed to suck down a juicebox before lights out.
I decide to keep it at 190% because I want to block off a potential low blood sugar elevator drop this afternoon.
Now I'm not shy about letting people know about my diabetes at work, or any place else for that matter - I don't hide in the Diabetes Closet - And I don't encourage others too, EVER.
But as I look around the office I realize that no one had any clue about this mornings blood sugar shenanigans - And I smile to myself and think: Eff you diabetes - I GOT THIS COVERED.
And at this moment in time, I stand by that statement.
Now if you ask me if "I GOT THIS diabetes thing covered" later on tonight or sometime tommorrow, there's a good chance I'll have a different answer.
But at this moment, I GOT DIABETES COVERED.... And I don't have to make any excuses for my diabetes behavior - and that is a wonderful thing. #yayforme